I Wonder Where Rosie Went?

As I was foolin' 'round on facebook tonight, I was looking thru my friends list, when I noticed that a friend of mine was no longer on my list. What's more, is that when I try to search for her, she is nowhere to be found. I search some of my other friends' lists, and find she is no longer on theirs either. What does this mean? Maybe she deleted her facebook account. Maybe she is blocking herself from my view altogether. Who knows? It does make me wonder, though, how many times this has happened in the past. You become friends with someone, and mind you, the only kind of friends I have are close ones. Anyone who knows me, knows that I am a very private man. I don't go baring my soul out to people, ya know, it just aint me.

(But I digress.)

You become friends with a person, and then something happens that interrupts that. Rosie was a friend of mine from high school. Rosie and I were really good friends during my senior year @ FD Roosevelt High School. After graduation, I stopped seeing Rosie altogether, due to school being our only real connection. Recently, Rosie and I made contact with each other again after about 28 years. It was great catching up on old times, and actually saying hi. Then all of a sudden she is gone again.
I think what is cool, is that technology has allowed us to now keep a list of all our friends, throughout life, in a neat little system, where we can have their family, birthdays, basically anything we want to know, complete with photos of the family, pets, and yes, even Sparky the Goldfish. This system is facebook. The point here is that you can see your friends, and reconnect with them, and have it all there at the click of a key. You never lose them, because they are always there, like a special piece of jewelry kept away in a heart shaped box. Keepsakes. But what if it isn't there anymore. Then what? Do I have to wait another 28 years to reconnect with Rosie? Is Rosie mad at me for some reason? Did I do something to cause this? I don't think so, but I can't help but wonder.
I also can't help but wonder how many other friends I will remember as time goes by. Friends I once considered close to my heart, who are no longer there in your life. What happened? How does this come to be? Knowing me, I will always wonder if I did something wrong...that's just me. If any old friends happen to read this, I am sorry if I wronged you, insulted you, offended you, or abused you in any way. I can never take that back, whatever it was. I can only say that I am a different person than that, and beg forgiveness. Until then, I guess I'll just sit here and wait for the next memory, and wonder what ever happened to Rosie?

Nobody by: me

Don't ask me, I'm Nobody
I have no real authority
I thought that I could be Somebody
But all I am is Nobody

There was a time that some would say
I'd raise some hell back in the day
But anymore, it should be said
That "he" is gone, "he" is dead.

How did things change, it should've never
But now that boy is gone forever.
Happy - go - lucky I used to be
But now I am just Nobody

Nowhere man, with nowhere plans
It's all I'm made to understand
For so long now it's how I've felt
When your down this long...
you know nothing else.

I've worked so hard to make a name
(I wish that some would feel the same)
But I've been stripped of my identity
And made to feel like Nobody.


Author's note: After spending 15 years in the same location with my employer, I felt the need to transfer to another location in an effort to move up the "corporate ladder." In the summer of 2002, I was working in a location that was so full of negativity, it rubbed off on me. This move was s'posed to be a positive step towards the future, but in the end, was anything but. After a year and a half, I found my way back to my original location, and have been here ever since. (Not counting the fact that the next time I would move, which would be the spring of 2008, the whole house moved with me...but that's a story for another blog) ;?)